Am i really a perfectionist? Why do people say i am one? :( Maybe i am. I know i'm fussy. I always get mad when things are not in place, they are dirty and dusty. Especially when things are unorganised. But i'm born with this kind of personality and i cannot change it. I hate it when things doens't go my way and i'm sure others do as well. It becomes a habit when i want everything to be in order. Is having such personality a curse? Or blessing?

Okay. PHEWWWW. Thank God that Balthus' and Li's 'outing' was quite a success. I was worried sick. I'm sorry that i didn't help out much and I've broken my promise. :( I am feeling lousy now. REAL LOUSY. I'm mad at myself. I can't even decide whether to drop or continue studying physics. I know i aren't good at physics. Definitely. But i do know that if i put in ALOT ALOT ALOT of effort, I'm pretty sure I'm gonna do well. But the fact is that do i have that much time to pick up physics from the very beginning? :( Or should i just drop it? So that I'll be able to spend more time and concentrate on the other subjects? Formula is just not my type. I NEED A TEACHER, A TUITION TEACHER FOR PHYSICS! I'm in a dilemma, i feel so lost. It is going to be so so so different when i drop physics. It is going to be different, definitely. Will it affect my career in the future? If i do drop it, how would i even know whether i can reach my goal? If i do not drop it, how am i going to start studying? What am i going to do? Is there anybody to guide me? I'm at the verge of crying now...

Where were you when i needed you to be by my side so badly?

TODAY IS A TERRIBLE DAY FOR ME. People in school are pissing me off, so are the people at home. :( NOW I FINALLY UNDERSTOOD WHAT YOU MEANT BY 'WE'RE DIFFERENT'.

PHEW. Thank God that today's meet the parent session was kinda successful. :D Although its a long day but i managed to pull through it. :DD I'm sorry for forgetting what i've promised on thu (the conversation) D: Now i sense the taste of being forgotten as a friend. I'm sorry. It just slipped out of my mind. My mistake, again. But i'll try, to not forget, try to be a better friend. Although there's alot of homework that is yet to be done, but i'm COPING. Finally. :D I know this is random, but i do wanna thank these people: EeHui, Kenlia, Lena, BXXX (can't say), Ms Neow, Mrs Tan (Miss Leong) for being there beside me and show that they really care about me. :'D At the same time, i felt the taste of being ignored too. I'll just tell myself: They aren't worth it. Just let it go. My shadow may remain in their heart, but it may also be washed away by the evilness of one's heart. I do miss the times, but will we be able to be like the past? It's unlikely for some cases, cause it's difficult to trust, to clear up all the misunderstandings, but i don't believe its impossible.

It's LAKSA day yesterday! :D COOL! I would have eaten my forth bowl if i had the time. Next time i guess i should just order a $4 bowl of laksa! :D HAHAHAHA. With the special formula of 3 drops of chilli with the noodles soaked in spices+coconut milk, it becomes the YUMMY bowl of laksa! :DDD It seems like i'm gonna eat a few more bowls on FRIDAY! I'm looking forward to it. I'm sorry that i've broken my promise, again. But i will really try and sleep early everyday alright?

Am i really a perfectionist? Why do people say i am one? :( Maybe i am. I know i'm fussy. I always get mad when things are not in place, they are dirty and dusty. Especially when things are unorganised. But i'm born with this kind of personality and i cannot change it. I hate it when things doens't go my way and i'm sure others do as well. It becomes a habit when i want everything to be in order. Is having such personality a curse? Or blessing?

Okay. PHEWWWW. Thank God that Balthus' and Li's 'outing' was quite a success. I was worried sick. I'm sorry that i didn't help out much and I've broken my promise. :( I am feeling lousy now. REAL LOUSY. I'm mad at myself. I can't even decide whether to drop or continue studying physics. I know i aren't good at physics. Definitely. But i do know that if i put in ALOT ALOT ALOT of effort, I'm pretty sure I'm gonna do well. But the fact is that do i have that much time to pick up physics from the very beginning? :( Or should i just drop it? So that I'll be able to spend more time and concentrate on the other subjects? Formula is just not my type. I NEED A TEACHER, A TUITION TEACHER FOR PHYSICS! I'm in a dilemma, i feel so lost. It is going to be so so so different when i drop physics. It is going to be different, definitely. Will it affect my career in the future? If i do drop it, how would i even know whether i can reach my goal? If i do not drop it, how am i going to start studying? What am i going to do? Is there anybody to guide me? I'm at the verge of crying now...

Where were you when i needed you to be by my side so badly?

TODAY IS A TERRIBLE DAY FOR ME. People in school are pissing me off, so are the people at home. :( NOW I FINALLY UNDERSTOOD WHAT YOU MEANT BY 'WE'RE DIFFERENT'.

PHEW. Thank God that today's meet the parent session was kinda successful. :D Although its a long day but i managed to pull through it. :DD I'm sorry for forgetting what i've promised on thu (the conversation) D: Now i sense the taste of being forgotten as a friend. I'm sorry. It just slipped out of my mind. My mistake, again. But i'll try, to not forget, try to be a better friend. Although there's alot of homework that is yet to be done, but i'm COPING. Finally. :D I know this is random, but i do wanna thank these people: EeHui, Kenlia, Lena, BXXX (can't say), Ms Neow, Mrs Tan (Miss Leong) for being there beside me and show that they really care about me. :'D At the same time, i felt the taste of being ignored too. I'll just tell myself: They aren't worth it. Just let it go. My shadow may remain in their heart, but it may also be washed away by the evilness of one's heart. I do miss the times, but will we be able to be like the past? It's unlikely for some cases, cause it's difficult to trust, to clear up all the misunderstandings, but i don't believe its impossible.

It's LAKSA day yesterday! :D COOL! I would have eaten my forth bowl if i had the time. Next time i guess i should just order a $4 bowl of laksa! :D HAHAHAHA. With the special formula of 3 drops of chilli with the noodles soaked in spices+coconut milk, it becomes the YUMMY bowl of laksa! :DDD It seems like i'm gonna eat a few more bowls on FRIDAY! I'm looking forward to it. I'm sorry that i've broken my promise, again. But i will really try and sleep early everyday alright?

ANNA QUACKEE